I’ve been moving through phases like the moon. I aspire to be full, only to get caught back in the dark and remerge as New. Not quite whole, I struggle to deal with the demons I can’t slay. I continue on course emerging as the crescent, allowing the light in to stay. The hope to…Read more »
The Climb: Why I Believe in Divorce
Posted by in Family, Kids, Self Development Believe it or not, my divorce has been the most spiritually rising experience of my life. Who’d of thought, huh? I guess depending on the kind of marriage one had, what one went through and how invested one was, well that could assist in determining the transformation on the other side. It’s different for…Read more »
Leaving a Life to Find a Life
Posted by in Self Development Fear. Its meaning is different for everyone. What we fear is individualized and customized just for us. Some may fear abandonment. Some may fear death. Some may fear loneliness. But if you’re me, you fear being alone and not being approved of. You fear not being accepted. You fear not being loved during the hard…Read more »
Far from Free
Posted by in Family, Self Development Why, at times, does it feel like the hardest thing we’ll ever do, is live this life for ourselves? Take narcissists out of the equation, and it seems kind of backwards, doesn’t it? We come into this life as a single, whole person. We start whole, because we know no different. As we grow,…Read more »
Why I Chose to do a Photoshoot Alone at 35
Posted by in Self Development Every picture I have is either of my children or with my children. Until now, I barely owned a professional photo of just myself, but that never bothered me in the least. Why would it? My family was my life and devoting every part of myself to them was something I thought should and would…Read more »
If You do One Thing in this Life, Find Connection
Posted by in Uncategorized If you’re like me, this year’s Valentine’s Day will be looking a bit different from ones past. Valentine’s Day used to be another day in which I received a material gift and gave a material gift. It was also a day of acknowledgment of my significant other, but let’s be honest, gifts. Whether I received…Read more »
Forward
The first time I saw this picture of my son, I thought, “Boy, don’t you ever lose your innocence or your will to fight for what you believe in.” This was taken two months ago, and as the days move forward, so does my frame of thought. I’ve become more progressive, more aware, more reflective,…Read more »
Hello Grief, We Meet Again
Posted by in Family, Parenting, Self Development I’ve spent the good part of a year in a state called “Grief.” My grief is not unique to others. My grief is not a new kind that’s never been felt before. My grief is not deeper than someone else’s. My grief is not different at all. My grief is the same kind you feel.…Read more »
The Unexpected Joy of My Divorce
Posted by in Family, Parenting, Self Development I was sitting on a secret for almost a week before I decided to call my father. He had noticed I was distant the past few months but I didn’t let on that it was anything more than stress at work, stress with the kids or the usual busyness of life. I could tell he…Read more »
When the Kids Leave
Ok, so here’s the honest to goodness truth, divorce sucks. I know, shocker. The process is horrific, painful and gut-wrenching. Sharing custody of your children can really suck, too. But it can also give you, as a parent, the break you never knew you needed. I can’t tell you the last time (before my divorce)…Read more »
